I'm tired of trying to impress people and I'm sure there are many that can relate. I've grew up to learn my weakness and strengths. People who try to put me down I shove away. I don't need negativity in my life. I know deep inside I'm a caring person, but I also know that deeper whithin myself I could care less of what people think and I can shove people who waste my time to the side faster than I can change the channel. I'm not depressed, I'm just aware I live in the real world and you can only count on yourself. I'm not insane, I'm just aware of my creativity and potention.
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Today is the day I started proving myself adult worthy. I would wake up, wake my siblings up, fix my sister's hair, give my brother his medication and take them to school. I would also had to feed the dogs and make the important phone calls my mom normally does in the morning. It is now 8:52 a.m and I have completed all my duties. I'm relieved my brother and mom made it to Honduras without complications. I'm even thrilled I get to have the house to myself. However, it feels a bit lonely. It's nothing to complain about, but it's something that makes you think about how much you miss your loved ones. I need to start taking more time to be more involved with my family now. Not everything will stay in place forever.
I'm not being negative, right?
So, we're in February now (Obviously. Anyone with a calendar or smartphone knows that.) and I haven't had any great motivation to write. Well, it's not even about the motivation anymore really, it's just been about being a procrastinator. I've started the "two jobs" stage of my early twenties and quite frankly, the only thing bugging is waking up at 4 or 5 a.m. It's not like I haven't done before for school or anything its just, momma likes her sleep. Catch my drift? But, the biggest bug in my mind is probably my mom's trip to Honduras. Now, it's not her first time on a plane or anything it's just all those tragic news reports about failing and missing planes. I literally fear for her safety and my brothers' since they're both going... I'm going to miss her like crazy and hopefully I can handle my siblings, my dogs, and work while she's gone. It's nothing to complain about really. I mean she DOES need her vacati...