Maybe I'm not happy, maybe I still feel depressed. But how do I change that? How do I become happy? How can I stop crying and feeling like I don't belong in this world. Sometimes, the days trick you. Sometimes there are days where you feel pretty and happy, other days you feel strong and confident, but today...today I'm feeling insecure, ugly, sad, and useless. On those days I feel like disappearing into thin air. I feel like I don't want to exist. I feel like I should die.

 I don't want to think that way, but I can't help it. I'm not myself sometimes.


I don't know what to do.

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